Prayers Helps

Dear God,

I don't ask you to make my life easier,
but I ask you to give me strength to face all my trouble.
Amen.

I don't go to church every Sunday but I talk to God always. Specially when I needed him the most at my most trouble days. I do believe in God and I also believe that he has the power to make everything works in the right way. When I got really sick 3 years ago, I was very scared that I wouldn't make it. I spent the whole 6 weeks at the hospital so everyone could watched after me. My only hope by then was to stay alive each day I wake up in the morning. There were nights that my nurse would always come and check me in my room just to make sure I was still breathing. Each day, I see nurses and doctors coming inside my room wearing blue hospital gowns and a hairnet. People wear them always whenever they come inside my room because I was quarantine  and very contagious. It hurt me to see people wearing that hideous costume but I knew why they had to. It was one night when I couldn't take it anymore so I cried and cried in my room. I was all alone and nobody was able to accompany me so I tortured myself and just cried. It was the very first time for me to kneel down the floor and talked to God inside my room. I was crying while I was talking to him.

" God, I know I made mistakes in life and I know you'll forgive me someday. I will accept your punishment to me any day now. I owe you my life for always hearing my prayers, for keeping my families and friends safe, and for guiding them through to whatever life gives them everyday. I also thank you for giving my best friend Drew the strength to live a happy life although, many days ago has been painful time for him and the family to get through this because I am in the hospital when he couldn't be here to stay with me. He always stays with me every time I am in the hospital to help me focus to myself, not to the situation. But it is different times this time because I am all alone and my situation is making me sad. So I prayed to please give me the strength to fight through and to survive this terrible sickness I'm going through. If I were to die, just please protect my families for me and make them happy while I'm gone because I am sure I will be back soon. Specially help my best friend Drew to find a woman that will give him a family to make him continue to live life happily and help my family to live a good life away from squatters. I love them so much. I will give you my life and soul to do these for me. But if I were to live, I promise I will stay healthy and to make sure my families are happy no matter what. Please God, I need you more than you'll ever know. I know you're the only one that can help me. Give my doctors the strength to help me feel better. Give me signs, God. All I want is to be home for Christmas and celebrate your birthday with my loved ones. Hear me out God. Amen."

This was my prayer at the hospital when I was so lonely and felt like dying inside of me. I didn't know what else to do. I hate being lonely and I hate darkness. I feel cold every night and I didn't want to sleep because I was afraid to not wake up the next day. After that night, I've noticed myself feeling much better. I was very happy each day. It was also when my doctors came and told me I would be home for before Christmas. I was ecstatic after that great news. I felt healthier and was very happy when I saw my brother again. Prayers helps if it really means something to you.